2 a.m with My Father

So there're a lot of things going on since my latest update
I started my winter vacation, I went to Thailand, and now I'm back in my hometown

Last night( literally it's "night"...2 a.m I mean
I had some conversation with my dad
With the accompany of the wine and the jazz, my dad seemed quite relaxed
We talked about stuffs that aren't necessary important, something that had bothered him

He's always worried about his kids' future, he's always worried about his parents' health
I got a feeling that he doesn't care about himself that much
He said that's why he's working so hard, not a day he's home earlier than 11 p.m
Because he has 4 children, 2 of them are still young, 2 f them might need to go study master's degree
He needs to save up some money for us, his kids

He is also saving for his parents, my grandparents
He's saving for their annual travel, he's saving for their health check
He has always been a nice son, and he'll continue to be

I'm pretty sure that I don't want to spend his money after my college years
After I graduate I'll go to US, study fashion, and pay my own tuition since then
And I also want to pay the money that I spent for these four years
Because this is what a mature, independent adult does
I maybe didn't realize this when I was 18, but I'm ready to take this when I'm 22.

So cheer to the future and independence, cheer for me, but most importantly, cheer for my father
At that time he raised the glass, which was filled with red wine from France
And he said "I'm happy being busy, I'm happy for supplying my family a sufficient life."

Picture from: http://www.innerfortune.com

New blog, new start!

Look back to my 2013
I have some high and lows
In my new year video I listed 5 of my favorites
But my 2013 is more than that

My past is my past, it's not what I want to say here
As I've become 20 years old
I realized that it's already the time to be responsible for my own life
Every decision, every word that came out from my mouth, every mistake is my responsibility
It should be when I turned 18, but I didn't actually realize it, so that put me into what I'm into right now
I used to blame it on my parents, blame it on everyone else but me
Now I just realized that I'm the only one to blame actually.
I'm 20, I need to grow and be independent.

So, new year, new start.
I wish myself to work harder and be more responsible
Don't be afraid to chase after what you want, then maybe you'll have a chance to win this.

Peace and love.

PS. I know it has been a while since Jan 1st, but I was busy working on my finals
So I get to finish this blog today, don't feel weird if it is published at Jan 11...